Clouds hanging, like the dead man swinging
Trees moving like the wind singing,
Subtle beautiful
Like a tranquil breeze the people pass
With cosmic ease, Peace at last,
With neurons firing
Each moment a still-frame of movement,
Perplexing but inspiring.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Leave a Mark
Leave a mark,
But make it define you express you carry you
as a flame from a candle
extend from the source
and
ignite
a thousand more
like a drop in the sea
isolated, but with endless significance
As the world opens,
fears rise, fears fall
like the passing of breath
Culminating
Dissipating
Within the expanse of my chest.
My lover has two names. But innumerable ways of raising my soul.
But make it define you express you carry you
as a flame from a candle
extend from the source
and
ignite
a thousand more
like a drop in the sea
isolated, but with endless significance
As the world opens,
fears rise, fears fall
like the passing of breath
Culminating
Dissipating
Within the expanse of my chest.
My lover has two names. But innumerable ways of raising my soul.
The Letter "S"
I love the hiss of the letter S. Like slitted eyes that see so much more than you think, the letter S is slippery and serpentine. Fundamentally female, she whispers off the lips, lingers a few seconds before escaping slowly, subtly, and imperceptibly into the void of quietude.
> ess, shhh, ssssss, se
> ess, shhh, ssssss, se
Communicating
It is only now that I realize how difficult and yet fundamentally important it is to communicate affection, appreciation, and love.
I feel it in my heart, a yearning... not so much to release something as a burst, but perhaps more as a breath...
I feel it in my heart, a yearning... not so much to release something as a burst, but perhaps more as a breath...
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Terrified And Excited
In little more than 2 weeks, I will be standing before a small class of 4 or 5 middle school students. For the next 6 weeks, I will teach them planetary science. I will have to come up with innovative, hands-on, interactive, participatory, and exploratory methods to teach and learn the basics of planetary science. After lunch, during "Exploratory Electives," I will be teaching "Movement: Dance, Martial Arts, and Fitness."
I am not a teacher. I am a student. And I a student trembling with fear, anticipation, uncertainty, excitement, insecurity, and a massive dosage of curiosity.
I will be working through Breakthrough Collaborative, a program in which I was once a student. Breakthrough is an educational program that prepares disadvantaged students to become more engaged in the world of academia; the program will prepare them, and actively help them enter and graduate from college preparatory high schools, and then university. They have an amazing rate of success, with a rate of college entrance double that of the original demographics from which the students come.
I am afraid.
I do not know if I am ready for this. I am not a teacher. The day begins at 8:00am. It ends at 6:00p.m. Then I grade, prepare, and consult. I am afraid that I am not sufficient, that my strength is not enough.
I am excited.
I know I will grow enormously from this experience and just as important, I will contribute something I consider incomprehensibly valuable to individual students, and the social web to which we all belong.
And I will discover whether or not I am strong, in a sense that I am unable to convey, but value more than anything else.
I am not a teacher. I am a student. And I a student trembling with fear, anticipation, uncertainty, excitement, insecurity, and a massive dosage of curiosity.
I will be working through Breakthrough Collaborative, a program in which I was once a student. Breakthrough is an educational program that prepares disadvantaged students to become more engaged in the world of academia; the program will prepare them, and actively help them enter and graduate from college preparatory high schools, and then university. They have an amazing rate of success, with a rate of college entrance double that of the original demographics from which the students come.
I am afraid.
I do not know if I am ready for this. I am not a teacher. The day begins at 8:00am. It ends at 6:00p.m. Then I grade, prepare, and consult. I am afraid that I am not sufficient, that my strength is not enough.
I am excited.
I know I will grow enormously from this experience and just as important, I will contribute something I consider incomprehensibly valuable to individual students, and the social web to which we all belong.
And I will discover whether or not I am strong, in a sense that I am unable to convey, but value more than anything else.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Human Composition Along Multiple Dimensions
This was the written part of my application for Boston College. It was rather spontaneous, with very little editing, so it is a bit lacking in coherence, and the transitions are often rather jumpy.
Interpreting the Human Composition Across Several Dimensions
The many fields of science are currently being drawn to a common middle-ground, a place where they converge, interact, and even find themselves defined by each other. This nexus is commonly treated as a holistic view, and is becoming increasingly popular in this era. Physics, chemistry, biology, psychology, statistics - these sciences are inherently related. It has become unavoidable to me to apply this paradigm to psychology and interpret the human psyche in terms of multiple interacting dimensions. It has become my belief that there is no way a human being can experience fulfillment without developing and progressing across these dimensions. And because of the unique relationship between these different dimensions, a lack of growth in one will hinder and obstruct progress in all the others. The purpose of exploring these dimensions is to improve the current state of psychology, which is incomplete.
The longer we spend observing aspects of human psychology, the more numerous the dimensions appear to be. Dimensions sometimes appear to be made up of even more basic and distinguishable dimensions. And as we spend even longer in contemplation and observation, we find that the distinctions between dimensions blur, that characteristics that belong to one inevitably belong to others. But if we find such characteristics, we can treat them as major and direct connections that link the dimensions, creating an impressive latice-like structure. Blurry distinctions imply solid connections.
Several dimensions are more immediately apparent: social, physical/physiological, intellectual, and existential. This is not to suggest that there are only 4 such dimensions. Surely, more can be intuited, and even more surely will different cultures have different expectations and interpretations of the dimensions that constitute human psychology. In this model, deconstruction and reconstruction are necessary; this is how progress is made. And always, there will be a factor that has not been included. We will never cease to split either the material or psychological worlds into smaller and smaller basic atomic elements. This will always leave us with unknowns.
The social dimension is our relationship with other human beings. It is essential to our progress, both externally and internally. The human is a naturally social animal, and is most efficient when s/he is in relation to other humans. Without social relationships, a person can never explore his/her potential to contribute to the world. Neither can a person explore the most intricate and defining characteristics of him/herself without delving into these social relationships. A complete psychology should help a person contribute to society. A human being cannot find fulfillment without contributing to his/her community; volunteer community work is absolutely essential for a person to be fulfilled.
The physical dimension is a neglected aspect within psychology. The human being is meant to be active. Our bodies demand more than passive sedentary lifestyles from us. Psychology must learn to emphasize the importance of physical activity. An inactive body will be unable to deal with the metabolites of stress. Our bodies are a gift, and we have forgotten to appreciate this gift.
A third dimension deals with our approach towards intellectual challenges. Dementia is becoming an ever-increasing problem in our culture. Our expectation of life is to work until a certain age, and retire from both social and intellectual work. Intellectual challenges have been proven to ward off dementia. It is important that we learn to emphasize the maintenance of intellectual pursuits: reading, mathematics, and games that place an intellectual demand.
Existentialism as a psychological dimension is not a philosophy; rather, it is the pursuit of meaning within our existence. Therapy should be capable of helping a person find a purpose in their life, and of finding a meaning to their struggles. A person should be given the opportunity to discover a feeling of purpose – not as an idea or thought, but as a simple feeling. This can be as simple as experiencing the sensation of presence.
The connections between these 4 basic dimensions are immediate and undeniable. Our social relations have an impact upon our feelings of purpose and satisfaction. Physical activity has been proven to develop and create neural connections. Intellectual challenges encourage us to work in groups. There is no mastery of any dimension; that is not the purpose of dissecting our psychology. Instead, there should be always a path of seeking and progress. It is not because a person is not capable of playing a sport that s/he should abandon (and be abandoned from) pursuing physical progress; they will find a different sort of satisfaction from discovering the potential of their individual bodies.
The need to redefine and assess the human across several over-lapping and interacting dimensions is most likely a product of our new way of accessing and sifting through information: the internet. This new approach is apparent in the different sciences – for example, the structural equation modeling of statistics, and the way in which information is organized within scientific disciplines. We no longer absorb information in a linear manner, but recognize major and minor connections that treat each bit of information as a node, and draw all these nodes together. Some of these connections are direct, some indirect, but like the extremely advanced neural pathways that make up our brains, they bring everything together.
Interpreting the Human Composition Across Several Dimensions
The many fields of science are currently being drawn to a common middle-ground, a place where they converge, interact, and even find themselves defined by each other. This nexus is commonly treated as a holistic view, and is becoming increasingly popular in this era. Physics, chemistry, biology, psychology, statistics - these sciences are inherently related. It has become unavoidable to me to apply this paradigm to psychology and interpret the human psyche in terms of multiple interacting dimensions. It has become my belief that there is no way a human being can experience fulfillment without developing and progressing across these dimensions. And because of the unique relationship between these different dimensions, a lack of growth in one will hinder and obstruct progress in all the others. The purpose of exploring these dimensions is to improve the current state of psychology, which is incomplete.
The longer we spend observing aspects of human psychology, the more numerous the dimensions appear to be. Dimensions sometimes appear to be made up of even more basic and distinguishable dimensions. And as we spend even longer in contemplation and observation, we find that the distinctions between dimensions blur, that characteristics that belong to one inevitably belong to others. But if we find such characteristics, we can treat them as major and direct connections that link the dimensions, creating an impressive latice-like structure. Blurry distinctions imply solid connections.
Several dimensions are more immediately apparent: social, physical/physiological, intellectual, and existential. This is not to suggest that there are only 4 such dimensions. Surely, more can be intuited, and even more surely will different cultures have different expectations and interpretations of the dimensions that constitute human psychology. In this model, deconstruction and reconstruction are necessary; this is how progress is made. And always, there will be a factor that has not been included. We will never cease to split either the material or psychological worlds into smaller and smaller basic atomic elements. This will always leave us with unknowns.
The social dimension is our relationship with other human beings. It is essential to our progress, both externally and internally. The human is a naturally social animal, and is most efficient when s/he is in relation to other humans. Without social relationships, a person can never explore his/her potential to contribute to the world. Neither can a person explore the most intricate and defining characteristics of him/herself without delving into these social relationships. A complete psychology should help a person contribute to society. A human being cannot find fulfillment without contributing to his/her community; volunteer community work is absolutely essential for a person to be fulfilled.
The physical dimension is a neglected aspect within psychology. The human being is meant to be active. Our bodies demand more than passive sedentary lifestyles from us. Psychology must learn to emphasize the importance of physical activity. An inactive body will be unable to deal with the metabolites of stress. Our bodies are a gift, and we have forgotten to appreciate this gift.
A third dimension deals with our approach towards intellectual challenges. Dementia is becoming an ever-increasing problem in our culture. Our expectation of life is to work until a certain age, and retire from both social and intellectual work. Intellectual challenges have been proven to ward off dementia. It is important that we learn to emphasize the maintenance of intellectual pursuits: reading, mathematics, and games that place an intellectual demand.
Existentialism as a psychological dimension is not a philosophy; rather, it is the pursuit of meaning within our existence. Therapy should be capable of helping a person find a purpose in their life, and of finding a meaning to their struggles. A person should be given the opportunity to discover a feeling of purpose – not as an idea or thought, but as a simple feeling. This can be as simple as experiencing the sensation of presence.
The connections between these 4 basic dimensions are immediate and undeniable. Our social relations have an impact upon our feelings of purpose and satisfaction. Physical activity has been proven to develop and create neural connections. Intellectual challenges encourage us to work in groups. There is no mastery of any dimension; that is not the purpose of dissecting our psychology. Instead, there should be always a path of seeking and progress. It is not because a person is not capable of playing a sport that s/he should abandon (and be abandoned from) pursuing physical progress; they will find a different sort of satisfaction from discovering the potential of their individual bodies.
The need to redefine and assess the human across several over-lapping and interacting dimensions is most likely a product of our new way of accessing and sifting through information: the internet. This new approach is apparent in the different sciences – for example, the structural equation modeling of statistics, and the way in which information is organized within scientific disciplines. We no longer absorb information in a linear manner, but recognize major and minor connections that treat each bit of information as a node, and draw all these nodes together. Some of these connections are direct, some indirect, but like the extremely advanced neural pathways that make up our brains, they bring everything together.
Integration
I am looking to integrate my study of psychology with movement, and the product of this amalgamation with social work. I do not know the path, I do not know if this is something realistic. But I suppose I shall use this space to document my efforts.
1. Social contribution is the apex of human potential. There is no further satisfaction in life than helping your neighbor.
2. Capoeira has been an art of liberation for slaves for several hundred years. It contains philosophy, community, discipline, and joy. Parkour, a newly emerging interpretation of movement (www.parkour.net, www.urbanfreeflow.com, www.americanparkour.com) also serves a similar purpose, although the two disciplines maintain many differences.
3. There are many demographics that I believe stand to benefit from the introduction of a therapeutically motivated discipline that integrates movement, philosophy, psychology, existentialism.
4. I do not know if such a discipline should focus primarily on physical discipline as a medium for therapy, or therapy as a medium for physical discipline. I do not yet know how much emphasis should be placed where, and what role each dimension should play.
5. The populations that I believe stand to benefit the most: disadvantaged youth, autistic persons, the terminally ill, depressed persons. The population that I feel most inspired to help, however, is that neglected and forgotten children. My motivation comes mainly from the Invisible Children campaign documentary, but also from my own experience in assessing students in alternative high schools. It is my belief that the majority stand to benefit from the introduction of some form of physical discipline. Discipline in this case should not be confused with authoritarian hierarchy or power conflict, but rather implies a self-generated form of focus.
6. I am still in the process of bringing together many loose thoughts. This should not be considered some final destination in my search. Rather, this is nothing more than a single step, an experiment in my attempt to solidify and actualize my goals.
7. I have never felt as good in my life as when I have listened, played with, or taught a young person. Whether it has been my efforts as an assessor at an alternative high school in Miami, or helping the younger children of our capoeira classes, or talking to a kid I met on the bus, metro-rail, or bookstore, or playing some sort of made up game with ever-evolving and adapting rules with the young, I believe that this could qualify as a "calling" in life.
8. When I see the eyes of the children in documentaries that expose their suffering, I cry. My heart is wrenched. Nothing is more moving to my soul than the suffering of the innocent. Except perhaps to see them rise out of their situation with laughter and dance. It is this that I want to offer them. I cannot end a war. I cannot change a dictatorship. I cannot alter our economy. But I can try to introduce laughter and hope in the present moment.
9. It is time for me to go train. I hope that my efforts amount to something.
1. Social contribution is the apex of human potential. There is no further satisfaction in life than helping your neighbor.
2. Capoeira has been an art of liberation for slaves for several hundred years. It contains philosophy, community, discipline, and joy. Parkour, a newly emerging interpretation of movement (www.parkour.net, www.urbanfreeflow.com, www.americanparkour.com) also serves a similar purpose, although the two disciplines maintain many differences.
3. There are many demographics that I believe stand to benefit from the introduction of a therapeutically motivated discipline that integrates movement, philosophy, psychology, existentialism.
4. I do not know if such a discipline should focus primarily on physical discipline as a medium for therapy, or therapy as a medium for physical discipline. I do not yet know how much emphasis should be placed where, and what role each dimension should play.
5. The populations that I believe stand to benefit the most: disadvantaged youth, autistic persons, the terminally ill, depressed persons. The population that I feel most inspired to help, however, is that neglected and forgotten children. My motivation comes mainly from the Invisible Children campaign documentary, but also from my own experience in assessing students in alternative high schools. It is my belief that the majority stand to benefit from the introduction of some form of physical discipline. Discipline in this case should not be confused with authoritarian hierarchy or power conflict, but rather implies a self-generated form of focus.
6. I am still in the process of bringing together many loose thoughts. This should not be considered some final destination in my search. Rather, this is nothing more than a single step, an experiment in my attempt to solidify and actualize my goals.
7. I have never felt as good in my life as when I have listened, played with, or taught a young person. Whether it has been my efforts as an assessor at an alternative high school in Miami, or helping the younger children of our capoeira classes, or talking to a kid I met on the bus, metro-rail, or bookstore, or playing some sort of made up game with ever-evolving and adapting rules with the young, I believe that this could qualify as a "calling" in life.
8. When I see the eyes of the children in documentaries that expose their suffering, I cry. My heart is wrenched. Nothing is more moving to my soul than the suffering of the innocent. Except perhaps to see them rise out of their situation with laughter and dance. It is this that I want to offer them. I cannot end a war. I cannot change a dictatorship. I cannot alter our economy. But I can try to introduce laughter and hope in the present moment.
9. It is time for me to go train. I hope that my efforts amount to something.
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